
In Drake’s song [Is There More](https://genius.com/Drake-is-there-more-lyrics), he laments over the simple question – is there more?

> Is there more to life than digits and bankin' accounts?
> Is there more to life than sayin' I figured it out?
>
> Am I missin' somethin' that's more important to find?
> Like healin' my soul, like family time
> Is there more to life than just when I'm feelin' alive?
> Is there more?

It’s fascinating that Drake, widely considered the most successful artist of all time, is asking this question. Drake isn’t an outlier in the music industry. Avicii committed suicide at 28, Frank Ocean and Kendrick Lamar disappeared from society after releasing #1 albums, and Taylor Swift and countless others have shed light on their mental disorders.

This trend is omnipresent – the most successful YouTubers are depressed, [America’s professional elite are miserable](https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2019/02/21/magazine/elite-professionals-jobs-happiness.html), and those at the top tech companies increasingly suffer from burnout. Sports are no exception, with players across the major leagues coming forward to speak about mental health. Kevin Love, a NBA player, recently wrote about [suffering a panic attack during a NBA game](https://www.theplayerstribune.com/articles/kevin-love-mental-health).

It seems that as a society, we’re avoiding the important questions. Why is success in the career paths we value leading to severe anxiety and mental health issues?

Though this question merits endless debate, the answer might be that there is no meaningful value to be found in the work we do. Derek Thompson aptly said that the “conception of work has shifted from _jobs_ to _careers_ to _callings_”.

Work is expected to bring meaning to our lives. Meanwhile, study after study has shown that pouring our lives into work shortens our lifespans, makes us unhappy, and deprives us of quality time building relationships.

Since the most successful in any field are the ones who’ve devoted their lives to their craft, is it a surprise that so many are miserable?

We need to stop pushing this mindless agenda of working more and hustling harder, and make time to be happy in our short lives.


Is There More?


I’ve been obsessed with personal finance since starting full-time work last June. I’m going to cover FIRE here – but I plan on covering more topics in the future.

## What are tax-advantaged accounts?

First, let’s establish that if you’re investing your money, it gets taxed twice. When you get your paycheck, it’s already been taxed by the government. Let’s say I deposit that into my preferred broker and buy some stocks. Eventually, when I sell those stocks, the profits get taxed once more.

As the name suggests, tax-advantaged accounts let you avoid one of the two taxations, either pre-tax (when you get your paycheck) or post-tax (when you sell your investments). It’s straightforward to conclude that investing in a tax-advantaged account is always better than investing in a regular account.

## What accounts are tax-advantaged?

Unfortunately, for most Americans, only retirement accounts are tax-advantaged. Everyone can contribute up to $6,000 annually in an IRA, or if your employer has a 401k plan, an additional $19,500 annually.

The main reason younger people don’t contribute to these accounts is that the money isn’t accessible until you retire, or the old age of 65. [This is completely false](https://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=how%20to%20withdraw%20from%20retirement%20accounts%20early).

In addition, there’s plenty of ways to avoid penalties on early withdrawals. Not only that, long term capital gains tax (the least tax you can pay on your investments) is 15%, while the early withdrawal penalty is 10%.

To make this more concrete, let’s say I bought stocks on Robinhood and sell the next year. I’d be taxed 15%, whereas if I had bought those same stocks in an IRA, I would only be taxed 10% if I withdrew the profits.

This means that it never makes sense to invest through normal accounts if you haven’t hit the contribution limit for retirement accounts first, regardless of when you withdraw.

## FIRE

The FIRE (Financial Independence, Retire Early) movement was eye-opening for me. Before learning about it, I assumed what everyone else does: we’ll be working for the next 30-40 years of our lives.

The movement isn’t just FI (Financial Independence), because FI+RE are intertwined. You can only truly be financially independent if you don’t need to work for money ever again, hence the “RE” part.

When I was in high school and I learned that index funds averaged 10% return, I realized that someone with 1 million dollars in the stock market could live off a salary of 100k a year indefinitely.

This is incorrect for a few different reasons, but FIRE is rooted in this basic idea: with X amount of capital, we can withdraw Y dollars indefinitely.

## Okay, how much can I withdraw each year?

Clearly, it’s not safe to withdraw 10% each year. In the case of a recession, we’d run out of money before the market recovered.

We won’t dive too far into the math, but even accounting for the worst recessions in U.S. history, the [“safe withdrawal rate” for early retirees is 4%](https://www.investopedia.com/terms/s/safe-withdrawal-rate-swr-method.asp). Feel free to research more, but yes, this means that you can live off of 4% of your investments indefinitely.

## What does FIRE mean for me?

Given what we’ve learned, the formula for FIRE is simple.

annual-income = (total investments) \* (safe-withdrawal-rate)

Let’s say you hypothetically want to live in NYC your whole life, and let’s assume you’ll rent a place for 2.5k a month. Allotting $30 for food each day (a bit extravagant) and $5000 for annual miscellaneous costs, we get:

(30 \* 365) + (2500 \* 12) + (5000) = 45,590

To achieve FIRE an annual income of 45,590, you would need 45,590 \* 25 = 1,139,750 in investments. With that amount, you could live off 45,590 for the rest of your life and never have to work again!

## How fast can I FIRE?

Here’s some projections for how fast someone could reach this with varying annual contributions, assuming a 8% stock market growth rate:

$30k: 18 years

$40k: 14 years

$50k: 13 years

$60k: 11 years

$70k: 10 years

Of course, extremely high earners can find ways to net even more in savings each year, but we’ll save these loopholes for another time.

The most common counter-argument I’ve heard at this point is “well, spending your money is more valuable when you’re younger”. I’ll point them to the book that many consider the genesis of FIRE – [Your Money or Your Life](https://www.amazon.com/Your-Money-Life-Transforming-Relationship/dp/0143115766).


Personal Finance: FIRE


> Golden State Warriors power forward Draymond Green considers himself the greatest defensive player in NBA history.
>
> "The best defender ever? Me", Green said. [...]
>
> "That's what I believe," he added. "Wholeheartedly."

I know what you’re thinking. This is _arrogant_ on so many levels – how can a player say this before they’ve even retired? Besides, Draymond is clearly not the best defender of all time. I mean, have you seen [insert name] defend?

Well, let’s pretend that Draymond goes on to be the unequivocal greatest defender in history.

We’d look back at this quote and say that this was a sign of greatness. That despite all the haters, this _confidence_ propelled him past everyone else.

I think this example describes an important problem: we recharacterize arrogance as confidence after success. Why is this problematic? Confidence is universally agreed as an essential component of success, but we constantly discourage arrogance, when in reality the two mostly overlap.

I think the advent of social media has made this worse; phrases like “weird flex but okay” entering teen lingo show how omnipresent this confidence-cancel-culture has gotten, with studies showing younger generations are more insecure than ever.

This isn’t something that has an easy fix but something to be cognizant of. We shouldn’t seek to impulsively shut down someone for something sounding mildly arrogant, and instead remember that putting yourself out there is already difficult enough.


Confidence or Arrogance?


I read a book earlier this year titled [How To Do Nothing](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/42771901-how-to-do-nothing), which describes how we can take a break from the omnipresent attention economy, and take time to develop more meaningful connections.

However, I think the sentiments in the book are more applicable today than ever before. With millions in mandated quarantine, many of us are turning to our devices to simulate the connections that we had prior to isolation.

Apps like Facebook are [“just trying to keep the lights on”, as it “[strains] to deal with skyrocketing usage”](https://www.nytimes.com/2020/03/24/technology/virus-facebook-usage-traffic.html), while Netflix and YouTube have lowered their default quality on videos to deal with immense traffic. We can only imagine how much TikTok’s metrics have increased, with its short-form video keeping users hooked for hours at a time.

In some ways, it’s ironic that society as a whole is becoming its least introspective when we are all separated. Instead, we seek to resolve our anxieties by looking outward – consuming an endless stream of news articles, statistics, and data – only to avoid digesting what we’ve seen by inundating our minds with entertainment and social media.

This is dangerous for a number of reasons. Any app with an infinite feed only becomes more addictive the more its company learns about us, and the algorithms that back content engines continue to improve each day.

We risk diving deeper into our own bubbles, as we are fed content that already falls in line with what we believe. As Peter Thiel wrote, “the most contrarian thing of all is not to oppose the crowd but to think for yourself”.

However, thinking for yourself isn’t possible without introspection. This isn’t a plea to be more productive or to “make the most of each day”, but rather to take the time to disconnect. No matter how appealing the digital world may be at times, all we are staring at are pixels. Would we even notice if our feed were autogenerated, instead of being filled with actual content posted by real people?

It’s important to avoid deluding ourselves into believing that this facsimile of meaningful connection is the real world. Although this has been an increasingly prevalent problem, it’s been exacerbated further by current circumstances.

Instead, we should ask ourselves – can we take some time each day to do nothing?


How to Do Nothing


I've been asked how I find the motivation to do everything I want to. At least for myself, I think I've figured it out. Just have someone come up to me and tell me that whatever I’m planning is impossible, and you can be sure that I will put in 110% effort into proving that person wrong.

I guess this approach to finding motivation led me to always take more and more on. Over time, I redefined others' expectations of me – as my successes mounted, people doubted my abilities on fewer and fewer occasions. I began to expect more of myself as well, having faith that I would always be able to "figure it out".

Admitting that I couldn't do something seemed antithetical to my own beliefs – I imprinted the notion that I could always sleep less, focus more, and be more efficient with my time. I refused to deviate from these ideas, even when I thought that I couldn't take it any more, and survived with even more faith in myself.

So naturally, coming into this semester, I had higher expectations for myself than ever before. I was enrolled in 21 credits, started the first semester of a Masters program, served as the Team Lead of Cornell AppDev and the Music Director of Absolute A Cappella, recruited for full-time opportunities after securing a return offer from Facebook, worked on shipping a [social polling app](https://cornellsun.com/2019/11/07/turning-idks-into-choices-students-launch-new-app/), and consulted for a [friend's startup](https://www.tryresponse.com/). Ironically, I'm writing this at 3:00AM on the plane ride back from the Y-Combinator Hackathon.

Turns out, this approach only worked to a certain extent. Although my success didn’t lead directly to more stress per se, it instead culminated in increasing levels of pressure. For me, it seemed that to everyone else my successes were preordained, which only furthered the fear of letting everyone down.

Throughout the semester, I would wake up after a full night of sleep feeling drained, something that I dismissed as a mental roadblock and not a symptom of something more serious. I only discovered how severe the issue was when on one of these days after waking up, my body couldn't take it anymore and I fell back asleep. I woke up later in the afternoon rejuvenated, and after a few minutes of feeling great, I realized that I couldn’t remember the last time I woke up not feeling exhausted. At this point, I knew that something was seriously wrong.

I know what you're thinking – good job, you realized burnout exists 21 years after everyone else has. Why even share this?

Throughout my time in college, I never knew that other people felt this way. I assumed that my peers and the people that I looked up to simply persevered through their struggles – I thought that what I was dealing in the moment wasn't even that bad, that I lacked the willpower necessary to succeed, and that ultimately I was making a big deal out of nothing.

I guess I hope that sharing this helps someone somewhere feel less alone with what they might be going through. Feeling stressed and lonely is honestly the worst feeling in the world, and it's oppressing to believe that there isn't anyone who can relate.

For me, I've learned that it's harder to admit that I can't do something, rather than taking on more and trying to be the hero. People who care about you will ultimately understand, and being honest and opening up helps so much more than you might think.


Burnout


I played a computer game called _Darkest Dungeon_ in high school. You can take a look at the picture below to get a good sense of what the game is like. Simply put, it’s stressful.

![Darkest Dungeon Logo](Darkest_Dungeon_Logo.png)

Ironically, stress while playing the game is almost always caused by your _characters_, who are stressed as well. Stress is one of the defining mechanics of the game – when a player’s heroes encounter particularly disturbing enemies, barely survive a battle, or see their allies meet their end – the individual heroes get stressed as well.

Just as in the real world, stress has a cost in _Darkest Dungeon_. Reaching 100 stress (the cap) leads to devastating consequences for a hero. They develop afflictions, ranging from becoming masochistic, developing phobias, or refusing to follow directions that the player inputs.

However, there is a small chance that instead a hero will develop a **Virtue**, a positive affliction that gives them greater confidence and strength than those around them. Reaching their breaking point suddenly grants them greater resolve, and those who survive these high-stress moments become the leaders of future expeditions.

This system for describing stress is remarkably realistic. Forgive me for being morbid, but life is similar to _Darkest Dungeon_.

In the game, it’s emphasized that heroes willingly volunteer to venture into dungeons and confront their fears. The price they pay is the same price we pay in our own lives for taking risks – high stress, our fears, and sometimes even our own health.

The reward? A select few are able to thrive in these stressful conditions. Even as others around them become paralyzed by the challenge, some have the resolve to ultimately overcome their obstacles.

So why write this? Isn’t this something we know already? There’s a widespread notion that in order to be successful, we need to be “comfortable with being uncomfortable”.

Well, I think there’s more behind this: I believe that the price of taking risks is the same as in _Darkest Dungeon_. As we surmount more obstacles in our everyday lives, we continue to seek out new ones – more challenging and difficult than before. Mounting successes make us numb to the risk, but every challenge has its price, and just as in _Darkest Dungeon_, no hero is infallible.

It’s important to be mindful of the risks we take in confronting new obstacles: the price of failure can often be masked, and only upon failure can we comprehend the cost.

Unlike the previous essays, I’m not sure what the point of this one is.

On one hand, I feel that it’s necessary to push ourselves to confront new challenges; surviving from the brink leads to growth like nothing else in life. Many of the most successful people I know are survivors of high-stress all-or-nothing scenarios; I would ascribe much of my success to the same.

On the other hand, I’ve found it depressing to see my peers take on risks without knowledge of the consequences. Losing motivation, imposter syndrome, and the feeling that one’s best isn’t enough, are among the many costs that I’ve seen others pay.

Just as in _Darkest Dungeon_, these beliefs need treatment and recovery time, and attempting to disregard our afflictions can lead to disastrous consequences.

Put simply, I think stress is something that is trivialized in modern day society, and has evolved to become something that we don’t weigh enough in our risk assessments.


Stress


There's a short story called There's No Such Thing as a Dragon, by Jack Kent.

> A small boy, Billy Bixbee, spies a dragon sitting on his bed one morning. It's about the size of a house cat, and friendly. He tells his mother about it, but she tells him that there's no such thing as a dragon. So, it starts to grow. It eats all of Billy's pancakes. Soon it fills the whole house. Mom tries to vacuum, but she has to go in and out of the house through the windows because of the dragon everywhere. It takes her forever. Then the dragon runs off with the house. Mom still insists that the dragon does not exist, but Billy, who's pretty much had it by now, insists, "There is a dragon, Mom." Confronted with something that cannot be explained otherwise, Mom is forced to admit that the dragon must exist.

Wait, dragons don’t exist. Does this story even have a purpose? Here's my take.

As humans, we simply can't take in everything. The weight of the world upon us, _everything_, all at once, would be enough to drive us insane. To compromise, we focus on one detail at a time, taking what we observe and fitting the pieces into preexisting narratives. We choose to ignore what doesn't make sense, rather than question our own beliefs.

However, by ignoring what we see in front of us we often exacerbate smaller problems, and when we confront the "dragons" in our lives it's already too late. As people, we have strong tendencies to ignore warning signs and to brush off symptoms, choosing instead to believe that everything will be alright if we pretend it will be.

Jordan Peterson states this aptly: don't ever underestimate the destructive power of sins of omission.

One might ask, to call them sins – isn't that too harsh?

Consider a married couple, happily married three years. The wife of this couple begins to notice oddities in her husband's behavior. He spends more and more time away from home, conversations and intimacies become more abrasive and cold, and he spends all of his time with a new “friend” from work. Clearly, there's a dragon in her house. Confronting the warning signs would require, well, the same amount of courage as confronting a real dragon. Her perception of him would be shattered, consequently throwing her own identity into flux. She would no longer be in a happy marriage, losing a critical part of who she is. But with cognizant omission, when the truth eventually is revealed, the pain is so much worse.

Consider your own happiness. You've just began work at your dream job, and after a few weeks, you realize that you don't enjoy it as much as you thought you would. Your coworkers aren't the interesting folks you thought you would meet, your mentor seems disinterested, and the work just isn't fulfilling. You talk to your friends and family, the people you trust the most.

Oftentimes we only seek advice because we secretly want others to say something that's impossible to admit to ourselves, and this case is no different – but everyone knows how much this meant to you, and they assuage your fears. Ultimately, rather than confront the truth, you choose to stay and not question the bubble you live in.

The examples are never-ending. From personal health, to financial decisions, to our addictions, whatever they may be, we must be willing to ask what seems impossible and question ourselves honestly.

The moral of the story, then? Confronting a cat-sized dragon is certainly daunting, but even Billy knows to confront it before it grows bigger than the house.

At that point, you admit either that dragons exist or insist that your house walked away on its own - which is worse?

_Note: Inspired by 12 Rules for Life, by Jordan Peterson_


Self-Deception


Following the crowd is easy. Too easy. While reading _Becoming_ by Michelle Obama, one of its passages struck a chord in me.

> This may be the fundamental problem with caring a lot about what others think. It can put you on the established path – the _my-isn’t-that-impressive_ path – and keep you there for a long time. Maybe it stops you from swerving, because what you risk losing in terms of other people’s high regard can feel too costly.
>
> For some, [law] might be truly interesting, but for you it is not. Maybe during those three years you make friends you’ll love and respect forever, people who seem genuinely called, but you yourself are not called. Your passion stays low, yet under no circumstance will you underperform. You live, as you always have, by the code of effort/result, and with it you keep achieving until you think you know the answers to all the questions – including the most important one. _Am I good enough? Yes, in fact I am._
>
> What happens next is that the rewards get real. You reach for the next rung of the ladder … at the age of twenty-five, you have an assistant. You make more money than your parents ever have.
>
> Is there anything to question? It doesn’t seem that way. You’re a lawyer now. You’ve taken everything ever given to you – and converted it to this. You’ve climbed the mountain.

There’s a common trope in childhood stories. Choose between someone who has money and is unhappy, or someone without much but is happy with what they have. Easy choice, right?

We’re told to “follow our dreams” and “pursue our passions”, but somewhere along the ride we realize that what we were told was just a white lie. Our peers who fail to follow the crowd and fail to excel at standardized tests are left behind, while those adept at staying ahead see their successes snowball.

But once you’ve climbed the mountain, led the crowd, what is there left to do? As Michelle Obama asked above, _is there anything to question_? Do we ever have room for our own passions?

It’s a question that I’ve been juggling over the last year. There isn’t a one-word answer or even a one-page answer. It’s a question that takes a lifetime to answer.

I believe that ultimately we innately know. Happiness is a _truth_, as subjective as it seems. Chasing our passions and dreams empowers us and drives us like nothing else. No matter how real the rewards get, nothing can fill the void of an unfulfilling career and life. Confronting the white lie “I’m happy” is something we’d rather avoid with endless perks and money, choosing to follow others as all of us have over the years.

If what we desire is nothing more than success in the eyes of the crowd, is it even success?


Following the Crowd


Having the correct mindset is one of the most amazing tools we have access to. Let me explain.

Let’s say I believe that I’ve learned everything that I can at Cornell.

Every day I wake up with the mindset that my time is wasted, that I could accomplish so much more if I could slug through these required classes any faster. What could I possibly have to learn from professors who aren’t qualified, my peers who don’t understand what I know, from organizations that have nothing to offer? And guess what? Every night, I go to sleep with my assumption confirmed.

Not only is my brain wired to seek evidence that supports my claims, every situation I’m in is viewed through the lens that an opportunity to learn simply doesn’t exist. So, what does this mean?

If you believe you have nothing to learn, you have nothing to learn.

It’s an incredible self-fulfilling prophecy.

By believing that you know the most about some “subject A”, you have prevented yourself from every learning more. You’ve limited yourself and will never know more. Even if someone comes along who is smarter that challenges your assumption, you will be quick to dismiss their logic as unfounded.

How can we prevent this from happening? It happens to the best of us – the more we know about a subject, the easier it is to fall into this trap.

It’s essential to stay focused on this truth at all times. Wake up with the mindset that you have so much yet to learn, listen to your peers, and challenge your own assumptions.

Simply believing that you have something left to learn will allow you to learn more.


Mindset


Growing up, I used to devour books. The local library contained a treasure trove of entire universes to lose yourself in, and my mom made sure that we paid a visit every week. I remember when I held my first library card in my hands – it meant that _I could check out books myself_.

Near the start of high school I discovered the wonders of the Internet and I stopped reading as much.

From there, it only went downhill. Assigned readings in school never ceased to impress me with their dullness, it was as if teachers **wanted** students to lose the little interest they had in reading. “Wow, I can’t remember the last book I read” was common, even among my peers at Stuyvesant High School.

Recently, however, I’ve rekindled my passion for reading.

Want to learn something new? You can read significantly faster than you can understand a podcast or a TED Talk, and you can probably read much faster than you think (check out [this site](https://spritz.com/) to see).

Books written by industry leaders can distill years of research and experience into a few hundred pages. Sure, reading involves putting time aside, but consider it an investment for your future self. Would you decline having lunch with Peter Thiel or Michelle Obama?

The question is laughably ridiculous – who would say no? Then why not set aside some time to read what they believe is so important that this knowledge had to be shared with everyone? Despite this, we still find it difficult to pick up a book, and even more difficult to reach the last sentence.

I’ve found success by setting aside a small part of my day to dedicate to reading. Reading during a 30-minute commute twice a day results in 5 hours of reading, and that’s _just_ during the work week.

I also use a Kindle to read, which has many benefits: easy highlighting of pages, not having to carry around heavy books, being able to preview and buy books quickly, and having my collection live on the cloud.

Reaching out to friends and asking for recommendations can be a great resource as well. I was surprised to learn that nearly everyone I know has a favorite book, and by simply asking I found a curated list of books to start with.

I keep my reading list updated [here](https://youngkim.co/books), and I’m always open to any recommendations.


Reading


Something that I’ve noticed about the most successful people I’ve met is that they understand the value of sleep.

There are countless studies showing the detrimental effects of not getting enough sleep. I’ve recently read [Why We Sleep](https://www.amazon.com/Why-We-Sleep-Unlocking-Dreams/dp/1501144316), a book by Matthew Walker, and the consequences of not sleeping enough are brutal.

> Sleeping less than six or seven hours a night can increase your risk of cancer by 50%.
>
> Driving without sufficient sleep causes more accidents than alcohol and drugs combined.
>
> The physical and mental impairments caused by a single night of bad sleep dwarfs those caused by an equivalent absence of food or exercise.

It’s amazing that we live in a society where not getting enough sleep is the societal norm. Although sleep is clearly necessary, we do anything and everything to spend more hours awake.

This trend has been omnipresent throughout my life, and I’ve seen it reach its peak while attending high school and now college.

Because of this, it almost makes sense that with everyone coveting the same two goals – success and more time in the day – that the two would be closely knit.

I’ve found that it is the complete opposite. The most successful people I’ve met understand the value of giving their minds and bodies time to recover.

Rather than bending the constraints of our bodies through caffeine and other stimulants, they focus instead on making the best use of their time.

Adequate sleep has been proven time and time again to increase focus, creativity, and productivity: take some extra time tonight to invest in your tomorrow.


On The Importance of Sleep


> See [2020 In Review](https://seedelano.netlify.app/writing/2020-in-review) to see my goals/thoughts for last year.

## 2021 Goals: A Review

**✅ Find clarity on what I want to work on in 2022. I know this is vague, but I want to take the time to find conviction in where my career is heading.**

This was my main priority heading into 2021. In last year's goals, I refrained from elaborating on this as I was still employed at Facebook, but I'd like to explain this a bit further now.

I felt disillusioned working at Facebook. It was hard for me to believe that my work made a positive impact on society or that working at Facebook was the best use of my talent. The compensation, perks, and brilliant coworkers all sugarcoated the truth that no one at Facebook fully believed that they were achieving the vision of "making the world more open and connected". Overall, my time at Facebook reminds me of [an essay I wrote](https://seedelano.netlify.app/writing/the-crowd) while still in college.

I switched companies and joined [Ramp](https://ramp.com/) in October, and it's been an amazing two months so far. The engineering talent is phenomenal, and being part of this all-star team reminds me of my time on [Cornell AppDev](https://www.cornellappdev.com/). I remember people on AppDev always lamented "I wish we could just start an AppDev company after graduation instead of joining [Company]", but Ramp has come pretty close (and in some ways surpassed!) my vision of what that might look like.

Overall, I'm proud that I was able to navigate these murky waters and achieve this goal. Major thanks to [TK Kong](https://tkkong.com/) who sold me on Ramp, Kevin/Omar who listened to my never-ending thoughts on FB, and everyone else who supported me through this decision.

**✅ Read 52 books this year.**

For the second year in a row, I've read 52 books! I feel very fortunate to have enjoyed so many reads this year; here were some of my favorites:

- [Foundation Trilogy](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/46654.The_Foundation_Trilogy)
  - A masterclass in science fiction. The plot twists throughout are incredible; it's one of those series where I wish I could forget the plot so that I could experience it again.
- [All the Light We Cannot See](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18143977-all-the-light-we-cannot-see)
  - I loved reading this – the writing is somehow both incredibly poignant yet unsentimental. I typically don't enjoy books with dual perspectives, but this book executed the concept perfectly.
- [Homeland Elegies](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/50358133-homeland-elegies)
  - I thought this was a perfect book for the current political climate and state of the country. Each chapter felt carefully constructed, melding truth and fiction to create incredibly thought-provoking situations.

As usual, I've noted all my recommendations for this year [here](https://seedelano.netlify.app/books).

**❌ Write + publish at least once a month.**

I unfortunately only published a total of six times last year. My excuse is that this was my stretch goal, but the truthful answer is that I simply didn't make enough time for this.

## Some Noteworthy Events

- As mentioned above, my major life update is switching jobs and joining Ramp. It's only been two months since I've joined, so I'm sure I'll have much more to discuss next year!
- I worked on [Crypto Wrapped](https://twitter.com/CryptoWrapped/status/1475971984383168514)! It's a miracle that this went from ideation to launch in a few weeks, as we severely underestimated how difficult getting everything production-ready would be. Regardless, it was incredibly exciting to ship something in ✨web3✨ and see it be well-received.
- This site is now hosted on [Netlify](https://seedelano.netlify.app/) and off Squarespace! I've honestly meant to do this for years but never had the discipline to go through with it. The most important part of this change (for me) is that I can now write posts in markdown! Squarespace's web editor was incredibly unoptimized and did not auto-save changes, leading to frustrating situations where my browser tab would freeze and I'd lose all my drafted changes.
- After over 190 hours of playing Smash Ultimate, I've finally reached Elite Smash! Yes, this is noteworthy enough to mention here 🤣

## Some Thoughts on 2021

This year flew by. I'm not sure if my memory is deterioriating or if this is because of COVID-19, but in my mind 2020 + 2021 have combined into a single year. Some days I wake up convinced I'm still 22; other days I wake up thinking I'm already 24; usually sometime throughout the day I remember that I only turned 23 a month ago. I'm curious if other recent new-grads are feeling this way, or if it's just me.

At the same time, it's hard for me to remember what "life before COVID" was like. Someone recently mentioned to me that before 2020, anti-vaxxers were a largely ridiculed fringe movement, which is near-impossible to fathom in present day.

The fact that this year has flown by has reinforced my belief in the importance of focus. The unfortunate truth is that I only have 7 more years' worth of goals left to write before I turn 30. Even worse, I only get one chance to choose the correct goals. To be fair, this knowledge might be more of a blessing than a curse. As Socrates said, "The unexamined life is not worth living".

## 2022 Goals

1. Run a half-marathon.\
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   Running a half-marathon has always been on my life bucket list, and something I want to achieve sooner than later (I realized that I'll be approaching my athletic peak in a few years). I've already started training for this – I'm using Nike Run Club to track my progress, and I'll be sure to write a reflection on the training process. If everything as planned, I'll accomplish this halfway through 2021!

2. Write + publish at least once a month.\
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   How hard can this be? I'm already starting the year publishing this, so just 11 more posts to go 😉. Jokes aside, my motivations for this goal are the same as last year – I simply have so much I want to write about.

3. Read 25 books this year.\
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   Although I was able to achieve my goal of reading 52 books two years in a row, I feel a bit burnt out from reading. I started the year with momentum – comfortably ahead of the one book a week pace, but as the year went on reading felt more like a chore and not something I genuinely wanted to do.\
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   Nevertheless, I want to continue reading and crossing books off my bucket list. I've found that books have been far more impressionable on me than anything I've watched. I think setting a more reasonable goal will prevent any burnout, and will incentivize me to take on more challenging reads.

4. A few personal goals – if they go well, I'll discuss these next year!






2021 In Review


It's bittersweet to say that today is my last day at Facebook. I interned at the company twice and worked fulltime for about 18 months, and saying it was instrumental to my growth would be a major understatement.

Here's some lessons learned:

On ramping up...

- Read through as many pull requests as possible, it’ll help you understand what other people are working on.
- Don't be afraid to ask questions on pull requests. Often times an outsider's perspective is more valuable than someone already familiar with the codebase.
- Document stuff as you learn it, then you can teach it to others ramping up later on.

On coding...

- Read the documentation of the language you're using end-to-end. It'll save you so much time in the future.
- When reading new code, start with data structures & interfaces before diving into the actual code itself.
- If something feels wrong in terms of implementation, it's probably wrong.

On success...

- Great coders aren't necessarily great engineers. Code wins arguments in the short-term, but in the long-term relationships are key.
- De-risk as much as possible as early as possible.
- Help others as much as possible.
- Over-communicate, both your successes and when you need help.


Ten Lessons Learned From My Time at Facebook

A Retrospective On My Journey in Tech


## Reading

My only goal for 2020 was to read 52 books for the year. This was my second year chasing after this milestone – and I’m proud to say that I read 53 books in 2020!

I originally set this as my goal for 2019, when I realized I had an ever-increasing list of books I wanted to read, while reading less books each year than ever before. I set the audacious goal of reading 52 books in 2019 (not even reaching 40), but I think the habits I created were instrumental to creating a rhythm in 2020.

I’ve touched on some of my [motivations for reading here](https://youngkim.co/writing/reading), which largely haven’t changed. I still stand by the Kindle, and halfway through the year I started writing more extensive reviews on Goodreads.

I’d like to share some of my favorite reads of 2020 (in no particular order):

- [Good Economics for Hard Times](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/51014619-good-economics-for-hard-times)
  - A must-read from the authors of the 2019 Nobel Prize in Economics.
- [The Defining Decade: Why Your Twenties Matter](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/40603783-the-defining-decade)
  - I felt this was particularly apt for me as a 21-year-old; practical and helpful.
- [Minor Feelings: An Asian American Reckoning](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/52845775-minor-feelings)
  - A beautiful and raw set of essays describing what it means to grow up an Asian in America.

## Life Updates

- I graduated from Cornell University earlier this year, with both a M. Eng and B.S. in Computer Science in four years.\
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   I was able to do this through the Early M. Eng program, which allows students to start their M. Eng in the final semester of their Bachelor’s. I plan on writing about the pros/cons this year, but the TLDR is that it’s not worth it – and I certainly wouldn’t have done it if it meant staying another semester.

- I started at Facebook on June 8th, joining the Resource Delivery team, which handles static resource delivery (HTML/CSS/JS) for clients on the web.\
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   I originally planned on traveling after the school year and starting at Facebook in August, but changed my start date in early March. Cornell had just declared classes would be remote for the remainder of the semester, and it was clear that there was no chance it would be safe to travel in June-August. Luckily, my timing worked out – a week later, recruiters froze start dates for any new hires.\
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   I’d like to write about both my internship experience + my recruiting experience, so when I get to that I’ll link to them here.

## Minor Life Updates

- Worked on Hub with the incredible team of TK, Kevin, and Omar for a CalHacks hackathon, winning prizes from Unusual Ventures and Village Global. [Check out TK’s fantastic write-up on this](https://tkkong.com/work/hub).
- Made some everyday-usage upgrades:
  - Dell 4K Monitor. I went with the one suggested by [Wirecutter](https://www.nytimes.com/wirecutter/reviews/best-4k-monitors/) (Dell Ultrasharp) and I’ve loved it since.
  - Herman Miller Aeron. Is it worth the price? The cliche advice is to invest the most in what you use everyday. All I know is that my back used to hurt sometimes after sitting the whole day, and now it doesn’t.
  - [Autonomous Desk](https://www.autonomous.ai/standing-desks/smartdesk-2-home). I left this in my cart for a day, and they sent me a discount code. I hardly ever use the “standing” feature, but assembly was straightforward and the desk room is great.
  - Converted this website to a dark color scheme. I’ve felt my eyes straining more and more as the year has progressed, and getting [DarkReader](https://darkreader.org/) and investing in simple solutions like lowering monitor brightness have paid dividends.

## 2021 Goals

1. Find clarity on what I want to work on in 2022. I know this is vague, but I want to take the time to find conviction in where my career is heading.
2. Read 52 books this year.
3. Write + publish at least once a month.\
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   This is something I’ve wanted to do since I started this website, and reading so much has made me appreciate good writing even more. Like my ever-increasing list of books I wanted to read in 2021, I’ve accumulated an endless list of subjects I want to touch on.\
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   There’s plenty of articles on Hacker News about why writing is so important (check out [this](http://www.paulgraham.com/writing44.html) or [that](http://paulgraham.com/useful.html) from Paul Graham), and improving as a writer & taking the time to formulate thoughts into writing are areas I want to improve on.\
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   I don’t think sharing writing is as crucial as _simply writing more_, and I’ve always felt that I’ve written for myself.


Essays

Reflections

Technical Writing